I realize that some people who are reading my technical reports, who are in the computer industry, are probably thinking I am basically nothing but an airhead.

However, as I have said many times, the system reports.  I not only designed to be of assistance to people who are having issues with their own computers.  But they are also designed for people who do not really know very much about the technical aspects of their computers.  Furthermore, after having been around computers as long as I have, I always have lived by the principal that what does not feel right is probably not right.

So with everything I had talked about regarding Internet Explorer, IE 9; as I was beginning to work on the comments this afternoon something in the back of my mind kept nagging at me.  And so I thought for a moment and I realized that in reality.  Firefox of the three browsers meaning the three main browsers, actually handled bookmarks.  The best.  And this began to nag at my mind because I noticed that Internet Explorer even though it is claiming to be the most secure browser, just did not seem to want to interface with some of the updated websites such as WordPress, that I was going to.  Furthermore, I could not get over why when I was using Firefox the audio service on my system was turned on but when I was using Internet Explorer.  It was not.

And of course, part of actually understanding the computer that you home whether it is a laptop or a desktop makes no difference.  Because part of the responsibility for owning a piece of machinery like that is to actually take it seriously.  And to try to learn as much as you possibly can not only about how to use the machine.  But but also how to maintain it and to services and to take care of it.

So the issue of why the audio service in my Windows 7 operating system was always turning off under Internet Explorer and never was under Firefox just sort of sat at the back of my mind.  And so, realizing that he going back to Firefox.  I would appear to a lot of the technical people like I was just an old lady having a blonde moment, I decided it was the better part of valor to go back to Firefox.

True, doing this, basically is sort of going around in a revolving door.  And yet, as soon as I went back to Firefox.  I was right.  The audio service on my Windows 7 operating system turned back on.  And what is more, everything began to load a lot more correctly and quickly.

But, realizing that there is a display issue with Firefox and some of its newsreaders.  And also realizing that I had no real way of linking into Windows live writer from any of the particular newsfeeds I might gather, I wrestled for a few moments with going back to Feeddemon.  But in reality, that is the best way to go.  Because then in actuality I can do exactly what I want.  I can choose one particular news story in the various categories.  And then because Firefox has this really splendid way of opening a window with all of your bookmarks.  I can then simply go right down the list of the bookmarks.  I have collected and choose which ones are pertinent for the various news stories.  I want to present.

And while many people might think that what I have gone through is basically chasing my tail.  I never look at it that way.  Because I do not look at life experiences as either bad or good.  I look at life experiences as always, providing new information that I can learn from.  And so this huge section of three or four days where I was basically out of touch with my Journal and racing to rebuild my computer system accomplished a number of things.

For one, I finally broke down and bought a flash drive for my computer.  And that is a good thing.  Because I can then store some critical programs that I need to keep handy on the flash drive and never lose them again.  Additionally, I gained a tremendous amount of knowledge.  How Internet Explorer relates to the Windows 7 operating system as compared to Google Chrome and Firefox.  I also learned which I had no idea of before, that Google actually is behaving in a very unscrupulous manner by installing the Google updater service or program routine into the Windows 7 environment, without anyone knowing it.  And that trying to remove the Google updater service or program routine is basically a nightmare from hell.

So everything I went through was truly worth it.

Comments and Schedule:

So in any event, I am about one third of the way clearing the comments on my Journal.  Which I intend to do this evening.  Then I just need to update my calendar so that I can schedule the time to make sure I have the time allotted to gather the news stories as compared to writing the Journal articles.  Plus of course trying to maintain this house.  And so I believe that I will probably start writing news stories again tomorrow morning.  And yes.  I have been reading the news and there is a ton to write about.

It is important that people understand that I am not writing in this journal as if I were an expert because I am not.  But I am intelligent.  And I am a thinker.  And I am an intellectual.  And as such, when I look at these news stories.  I realize that my take on a lot of the news stories is a bit different.  Or perhaps very similar in some ways.  But also, because of the fact that I actually grew up in a Republican household where my family was actually responsible for running the entire Republican Party for Northeast Ohio.  I gained a tremendous amount of insight into the conservative mentality not only in Cleveland Ohio, but throughout the United States.

And then, with my schooling and life experience I basically gained a tremendous amount more knowledge about how conservativism, anthropologically speaking, throughout the world is truly limiting humanity’s potential toward innovation and invention and creativity.

And having studied philosophy is much as I have, there are philosophical aspects to what I write in my journal that I believe will never provide any answers for anyone.  But at the very least they will provide some rather significant questions.  And that really is my only goal.  As I have always maintained, I do not do answers.  All I ever tried to do is ask some of the most difficult questions I can.  Because in the 61 years I have lived in my life answers have never given me any kind of real insight into anything.  But when I discovered really difficult questions.  I was never concerned with trying to find the answer to those questions as much is I was concerned with how much I could learn from those questions.

And that is something I really try to share in my Journal.  The reality is that at 61 years old my time left in this world is to some degree limited.  But I really do love this world.  And I really do love humanity.  I love humanity more than most people and humanity even understand.  But I always have.  I never responded to the child abuse or the physical or emotional abuse that I received from my parents and other people the way that many others did.  I came out of that abuse not being angry at humanity.  And while I was and still am very angry at the behavior, meaning specifically the behavior, that humanity demonstrates and promotes and supports.  I am never angry at humanity.  Because coming out of the abuse I lived with most of my life.  I always felt very sorry for humanity.  I felt sorry that humanity had to go to such an extent to abuse various elements within humanity so that others would feel more important or feel like they were better than other people.

And so growing up.  I became much more interested in demonstrating my love for humanity by not focusing on all of the expedient plug-in answers that humanity wanted to give to people.  But instead wanting to focus on the questions.  What can we learn by looking at the most impossible questions that we can.  Because when you look at those really difficult questions you are not going to learn the answer.  At least not an answer you can put into words.  Because when you look at those questions.  It is not an explanation or an answer that you can actually articulate.  It is an understanding.  It is a comprehension.  When you look at these huge horribly unbelievably complex questions you are not going to find an answer.  Because in many cases there is no answer.  And even that statement itself is not an answer.  Because language, meaning the language that we humans use, is only the tiniest fraction of all of the information that exists in the universe.  Language is nothing more than coded symbols that we look at in order to express the actual thoughts within ourselves.

And those thoughts go so far beyond what language is capable of expressing that we as human beings Endep using music and art and meditation and religion and spirituality and a host of other things in order to try and express those thoughts which we cannot put into words.  And yet everything we do with all of the various forms of attempts to express what is going on inside of our minds and inside of our lives and sub being that tiniest fraction unimaginable up all of the tremendous amount of information there is in the universe.  Because remember, the universe is infinite.  So our language can being nowhere near significant with regard to the amount of information that exists in the universe.  Because the universe is infinite.

So for anyone to think that what they know, as far as what they can express it language is truly significant is probably kidding themselves.  Because no matter what we express in words and in our language can never come anywhere close to expressing the tremendous informational dialogue that exists in the universe, most of which that has nothing to do with our language.  Furthermore, most of the information that we experience every single second as human beings is not even physical at all.  Because true information and informational signal recognition does not take place simply in the third dimension, meaning the physical realm.  Every single aspect of life here on earth.  Whether it is a rock or a piece of dirt or an animal such as a dog or a cat or a plant.  Every single aspect of life here on earth receives and sends out information, most of which is not physical in any way.

It is the human condition that has been regimented to existing within only three dimensions whereby humans are convinced that the only valuable information there is exists within those three dimensions.  And yet, that would then suggest that we humans are in fact the superset of the universe which is not true.  Humanity is a very tiny small speck and a subset of all of the huge life that exists in the universe.  And for us to be sanctimonious enough to think that our language is so important that we do not need to even consider any of the other information in the universe is not only absolutely stupid, but it is making sure that humanity will not involve and that we will not expand our thinking and if we do not expand our thinking.  We do not have a chance to survive

If one generation does not become better than the other then there is no forward evolutionary progress.  Give one generation simply stays exactly like the one before it.  Then humanity never involves.  Humanity never grows.  Humanity never becomes more enlightened or expanded.  If all we do is pack ourselves down into a very narrowminded perspective of everything that exists.  We then in fact deny to ourselves.  The existence of everything we claim to believe in which is in fact that not only the God we worship but that the universe is infinite.  And if God and the universe is infinite that our knowledge has to accommodate that infinite aspect of God and the universe.  And to not be cognizant of the infinite aspects of the God we claim to worship or the universe is again for us to deny the very things we claim to believe in.

Just like my skin crawls when people are claiming that one religion is more valid than another.  Because that is absolutely ludicrous and air responsible.  There can be no one single way to understand God or the universe.  Because in reality, God or the universe, or science and religion is not to separate types of knowledge.  In reality, science and religion are exactly the same knowledge.  The only thing that is different is the perspective.  Because they are both part of the infinite aspect of all information.  So for anyone who is religion oriented or religious to say that their knowledge is different than science is the dumbest thing I think I have ever heard.  Because religion and science are exactly the same knowledge.  They exist within the same infinite aspect of all information throughout the entire universe.

So all of this bull ship that people are going through bargaining over science and religion is basically the dumbest thing in the world.  Because the reality is it is not the knowledge that is different.  It is the perspective that is different.

And if you do not believe me, and I hope that you do not.  Just look at history.  Look at what religion talks about with regard to the universe and then look at quantum mechanics and quantum physics and Newtonian metaphysics.  Then look at stellar mechanics and astrophysics.  And as you look at these different sciences, you are going to see a lot of the same principles and those scientific disciplines being expressed in religion from a spiritual perspective.  The principles are the same.  The perspective is different.

So, my Journal and the years I have left here in this world is not to do what I have always done in years past especially when my darling wife Aileen was alive.  Because when Aileen was alive.  She and I worked shoulder to shoulder to try to do everything we could to rescue as many people here on Earth from horrible situations as possible.  And because Aileen was much more of a social butterfly that I was, she was, to a great extent much more successful at being social.  But that is okay.  My talent is and being social.  My talent is as a thinker.

And so of I can give anything back to my fellow humans here on earth.  If I can give anything back to humanity in the years I have left to be alive then.  My hope is to truly do exactly what I am doing right now.  To give humanity the toughest questions I can possibly come up with.  To present the most difficult issues I can think of in my Journal.  Issues that have no answers whatsoever.  But that when the reader reads what I am writing they come away with huge questions.  Questions that are so gigantic that their minds literally open up hugely.  That their minds as a result of seeing these questions are being aware of these questions.  Suddenly are open to to unbelievable gigantic further questions.  Because that is the reality.

The universe will never be explained.  The universe will never be confined into the narrowminded perspective of humanity pursuant to language.  There are aspects of the universe that defy every single form of language humans have ever invented since the beginning of time.  There are things in the universe that have absolutely no way of linguistic expression.  There are occurrences taking place in the universe that are so beyond language that even religion has no way of being able to comprehend or even extrapolate what is going on.

And if I do not present these concepts in my Journal that I have not done my job as a fellow human being here on Earth to always aspired to the greater good.  I am hugely passionate about wanting humanity to do better.  I am hugely passionate about my understanding and my awareness of how incontestable the human condition and all of our language really is when compared to the infinite aspect of the universe.  All anyone has to do is look at a map of the universe or what we know of the universe which is classified as, the known universe.  And when you do you see that the galaxy that we, meaning Earth, resides in, known as the Milky Way, is actually so tiny and so small that it is barely a speck in the universe.  And in the galaxy, known as the Milky Way, which is where Earth is, Earth itself is such a tiny speck in that galaxy that we literally are just nothing more than a pinprick of life in the universe.

The movie, Horton hears a who is so absolutely representative of what we humans are on earth.  Because we are infinitesimal compared to the gigantic infinite aspect of the universe.  And religion is a very limiting word and concept.  Because religion applies to strictly our understanding here on earth of something that is infinite and defies explanation.

So consequently, when I have encounters like I have gone through with my computer system over the last several days.  I never look at those situations as a negative.  And I am always prepared to adapt to constant change.  Part of that is as a result of my having been a spinal fusion survivor all my life.  Because I always had to adapt to constant changes within my body and the environment.  But for whatever other reasons I always was much more fascinated with looking at the questions that I ever was with the answers.

And when I write these Journal articles that I write like I said I am not interested in giving anyone answers.  When I write like I am writing in these past several paragraphs I am writing from the very core inside of myself of how I really feel.  And this type of writing is much different than the political writing.  I do.  But the political writing and the human rights advocacy writing that I do is designed by my own intention to be as divisive and as confrontational as I can possibly make it.  Because only by being that way will I ever shake people up enough for them to ask the tougher questions of themselves and each other and their families.  Because of what is happening in this world.

There is no excuse for the human condition to claim that we are pro-life and at the same time allow over 6 million women to either been raped or murdered every single year in the United States alone.  That is not pro-life.  Just like we are not pro-life when we are allowing 18 children to starve to death and 17 children to be murdered every single minute.  Just like we are not pro-life when we turn our backs on the mentally ill regardless what country they are living in.  Whereby, every 15 min. around the world another child or adult is becoming so desperate and so lost and alone that the only thing they can think of doing is killing themselves.  That is not pro-life.

But for me to try to reach people who have become so complacent in their own lives and used to listening to the answers and accepting the answers and never asking questions the only way I can shake people up enough to turn them away from accepting all of the superfluous and stereotypical answers is to be as divisive as I possibly can.  To make them uncomfortable.  Tube make them realize that they continue looking at the answers they will learn nothing.  The only way they will learn anything is to start asking questions.  And the best question to ask is, why.

So I do lots of different types of writing.  The writing I am doing right now is how I feel inside of my soul.  I do not know any of you who are reading my Journal.  There are a lot of you who are in the United States.  But there are a tremendous amount of you who come from other countries all over the world.  I do not know any of you.  But what is absolutely so remarkable is that I love each and everyone of you who take the time to read my Journal as much as I have loved and as much is I still love my darling Aileen.  I love the fact that you enjoy reading and that you enjoy thinking and that you are not complacent enough to sit back and simply watch TV or watch a video.  That you are more interested in making your brain work.  That you are interested in asking hard questions of yourselves.

Humanity is suffering beyond anything I have ever seen in all the years I have lived here on earth.  And my heart literally weeps for the suffering that so many millions of brilliant men and women and children are going through.  My heart breaks thinking that we have veterans in every single nation here in the world.  Men and women who have been committed to protecting their nation’s and standing up with the best of what is in their nations.  And yet these men and women regardless of what nation they are in have been routinely forgotten by their governments.  Just like in the United States.  The conservatives thinkers in Washington get all the medical benefits that they want and all the money they want.  And yet we have brilliant men and women who are wonderfully brave veterans in the United States who are suffering horribly with medical conditions.  We have a ton of veterans in the United States who are homeless.  We have amazingly brilliant men and women in our wonderful police forces and in our armed services who have children who are disabled and none of these people are getting any of the kind of medical benefits that the conservatives thinkers in Washington are making sure they get for themselves.

And for anyone to think that kind of behavior is peculiar to the United States is mistaken.  Because governments all over the world are treating their veterans and their police the same way.  And that is wrong.  The police and the veterans are just like you and I.  They are people.  They are men and women with families just like the rest of us.  If we can show them the respect that they deserve for being willing to put their lives on the line to defend our country’s and to defend us as people then what value do we have?

So I do not know any of you.  But I love all of you.  Just always know that.  No matter how I write.  And no matter what I say every single thing I do in this Journal is driven all the way to the very core of my heart and soul by how much I love each and every single one of you.

So in conclusion, I am going back to Firefox and I in using Feeddemon.  And that is fine.  It is late.  I am still fairly exhausted from the last four days of hardly sleeping at all why was rebuilding my system.  Plus, in addition to doing the dictation.  I did this morning and also doing the laundry today and cleaning the house and going through some of the spam comments I am pretty much done.

And with it being already 4:16 PM here in Cleveland where we are having a driving snowstorm with cold weather.  My plan is to put the laundry away and to perhaps have a bowl soup.  And curl up under the blanket and again watch some movies.  I generally like the funny movies because they take my mind off of all of the serious stuff.  I have to write all the time.  And they take my mind off of how much I miss my darling Aileen.  I miss her so badly.  But I know she is inside of me.  I know she is with me.  Just like I know all of you are also.

And then, because I know how my sleep patterns are with it being around 4:30 PM here in Cleveland.  I will probably be up around 10 PM tonight.  And my voice will have recovered.  And I will get back to forging ahead with the comments.  And then updating my calendar.  And then the next thing I want to do is go through the e-mail.  And I will forge ahead.  I am not going to let any of you down.  Those of you like my Journal and those of you who occasionally read my Journal.  I am never going to let any of you down.  You will always get my highest effort no matter what.

The rules.  It has always existed in this house even when Aileen was alive was simply that nothing falls to the ground and this house.  And that goes back to the biblical expression that simply says it of God will not allow the smallest sparrow to fall to the ground then why should we as gods creations do any less?

Thank you all so very much for listening.

 

See Also:

My Significant Journal Entries:

  1. My Biographical Profile
  2. Distractions
  3. My Spinal Injuries
  4. Now We’re Having Fun, Right?
  5. My Complete Medical Record Of My Caregiving For Aileen
  6. Connections
  7. Finding Neverland
  8. I Never Want To Stop Crying For My Darling Aileen
  9. How Do I love thee. The First Anniversary Of Aileen’s Rosebush
  10. Oh There You Are
  11. My Philosophy of Life
  12. Second Gear, My discussion of my Pro-Life, and Pro-Choice Position
  13. The Time I was hired to photograph and met President-elect Ronald Reagan
  14. My 250 Million Variable Characteristic Hieroglyphic Language
  15. My Global Warming Research
  16. Quantum Mechanics And Newtonian Metaphysics, Originally Dictated On Friday March 19, 2010 (two days before Aileen collapsed and was told she only had 2 months left to live
  17. Magnitude 2.6 Earthquake In Central California
  18. Earth Preaching
  19. When Cancer Meets City Code
  20. Religion 101
  21. I Am An Iconoclastic Human Rights Advocate
  22. The Dark Lord
  23. Sand On The Floor
  24. ACLU Court Challenge Religious Restrictions Government Funded Trafficking Victims Program
  25. Penelope Cruz even looks good in menswear
  26. An Update On How Mike DeWine Is Trying To Take My Home Away From Me
  27. The Truth Game
  28. The Tortoise And The Hare
  29. A Human Comedy
  30. Fear: One of Life’s Great Motivators
  31. Give Me That Old Time Religion
  32. The Shadow People
  33. Also To Be Noted
  34. At Last
  35. Midnight Madness
  36. The Miracle of Synchronicity
  37. A Speck Of Dust On A Dirty Beach